Daily Devotion

Bea Broder-Oldach

In the early days of the pandemic, so little was known about the Corona virus. How would we live with this unwelcome companion? How long would it take before life would return to familiar routines? Each day felt like walking on sand dunes, with the earth slipping away under my feet. I felt an uncertainty about life in a deeper way than ever before. That uncertainty gave way to fear. 

Suddenly, there were long days at home, with calendars stamped with “postponed” or “cancelled.”  Work became solitary. Travel was a balancing act of risk assessment, physical distancing, and quarantine. A way of life taken for granted gave way to big questions. Where would I find meaning? What contributions could I make, while staying safe? When would travel be possible? And a harder question- would dear ones survive through this time? Would I see them again? 

With these thoughts weighing heavily on my heart, I got busy in the quiet of my home – preparing meals, sending cards, and checking on friends. My Amazon Prime subscription got a solid work out as I power watched movies while sewing masks. Some days were filled with a lonely busyness, others with a prayerful solitude. Contact precautions and schedule adjustments laid like a film over daily life, a malaise born of the pandemic - a pandaise.  While keeping busy provided some sense of meaning and purpose, I felt a yearning for the rhythm of life that had been before. Then, one day, something shifted unexpectedly, and I was transformed.

I was driving down the road, deep in lament for the losses born of pandemic. I wanted to feel grateful, I was alive after all, but the thankfulness would not come. I continued on my way, when suddenly a new question broke through the armor of my soul. 

“Can I be enough for you?”  

That question changed the course of my pandemic journey. In handing over the weightiness of pandemic life to God, I was blessed with freedom, finding peace and purpose in this time of pandemic.    I am grateful. 

“Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow, they toil not, neither do they spin; yet I say unto you,    even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.” Mt 6:28-29

1 comments on article "Daily Devotion"

Danelle Buelsing

Bea, it's so easy to slip into wanting something more. Thank you for your beautifully written reminder to be grateful and content.

11/12/2020 11:54 PM

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